LETTER TO GOD

Hi, God. Its me… again.
Its been three months. I’ve been praying and crying my heart out for the same thing. Three months. But I have yet hear anything from You.
What happened to us, God?
I sense that You’re still mad at me.
You’re mad at me, aren’t You? Must be. Because I tried to call You a lot of times, but… You never answered. Everytime I pray to You, feels like I’m talking to myself. I feel like… You’re nowhere to be found. Its just me and the walls. Empty.
I found myself writing this letter, hoping that maybe You’ll read it.

God, where are You?
I guess I missed You..
This morning I woke up with sore throat and aching heart. I cried a lot. Then stopped. Then cried again. I’m amazed by my eyes, how come they never get dry? I cried like, a river, for the past three months.
I know. Friends keep calling me stupid. Even I called myself stupid.
It just hurts, God.
Still does. It hurts too much I feel numb.

Now that You don’t wanna talk to me, I…
I’ve never felt so lonely before.

People say if something or someone hurt you, you have to give yourself some space to lick your own wounds.
I’ve been licking my wounds for three months, but its still bleeding.

So yeah, God, I need You.
Talk to me… please. Say something. There are so many blurry question marks floating in my head, and no one knows the answer. I don’t know what to do, which way to go, nor how to start again.

I hope that You’ll read this letter. I look forward hearing from You.
But if You’re too busy to talk to me, please just send someone over.


Regards,
Me.